and his righteousness
Mar 6
It is easy to read a verse or passage you know well and only see what you were looking for or what is familiar to you. So for years I have had this verse (Matthew 6:33) going through my mind about seeking first the kingdom of God. So I have been doing that as far as I can, but I have been feeling that as much as this has been a really good and positive thing for me, that something is still not quite right. When I look at love and how love must be sincere and then I look at how the fruit should be evident, I am thinking that there is a piece missing somewhere.
It is not that I don’t have love, but it is feeble and the fruit of the spirit is not always as close to the top of my heart and lips as it should be. When for example my wife is irritated by something someone else does (eg one of our children) and then wants to vent andf offload to me, and all I want to do is relax and chill, there is a love component that is missing and I tend to add fuel to the fire rather than to just love her and put myself aside for the moment.
Yesterday I had a 3 hour conversation with a Christian brother of mine. He is very wise and wise in business. And some of the things he said to me were a correction to me. He did not intend it or even plan to do that, but what he said was a witness in my spirit and this led to a realisation that there is more that I need to be doing to be walking in the place that I need to be. And so I come back to Matt 6:33 and when I read it again I see it is not just seeking the kingdom of God first, it is seeking his righteousness also.
So that is my journey for now. That is not going to be easy, but lets hang in for the ride.